April 18, 2014   364 notes

Spiralling II (by freyavev)

Spiralling II (by freyavev)

(Source: wolf-teeth)

April 17, 2014   2 notes

sixteen. - the definition of escape.

abstracthappiness:

1. i’m going to leave you holding my memory like you held my dress that first time i asked you to take it off of me. i’m going out the fire escape with a broken suitcase, leaving a trail of clothes that you won’t follow because you haven’t forgiven me yet, or you have but it’s complicated. 

2. i need a bigger space now. you need me gone. our apartment seemed to shrink to nothing as all those words we kept bottled up leaked out too late, spilling onto the floor, shattering against the walls and staining the hardwood.

3. one day i’m going to be that face, that name that flickers at the back of your head that you reach for but can never quite touch. you won’t be able to select me out of a lineup, much less a crowd. and one day, i’ll say the same about you.

April 17, 2014   2 notes

fifteen. - what a mess i can be.

abstracthappiness:

this is me, 
curled up, cold, and crying. 
(i have been here before.)

not here, in this bed. 
other places, other beds or floors. 
           (a bathroom floor, after the wedding; 
           my living room floor, after her party;
           the old apartment, before class.) 

always alone 
           (heaven forbid
           i have someone 
           to save me from myself). 

wishing for something different. 
for someone to be here. 
for someone to call. 
for my heart to change, to calm. 

i have aches deep in my bones tonight 
that i can chase away with pills 
and i can sink away into sleep and settle
and not worry tomorrow 

but tonight i am distracted by the thought that it is so easy to 

crash 
softly 

back into this place (in my head) 
in another place 
           (tomorrow or the next day) 
           (in the bedroom bathroom breakroom)
alone 

curled up, cold, and crying. 

April 17, 2014   361 notes

(Source: a-pattern-a-day)

April 17, 2014
Kitty face in my latte! 

Kitty face in my latte! 

April 15, 2014   4 notes

fourteen. - cuts and fumes.

abstracthappiness:

i am tangled barbed wire today. 

poison in the apple before she bites into it. 

gasoline the second before a lit match hits it. 

April 15, 2014   87 notes
thingssheloves:

untitled by Anna Ådén on Flickr.

thingssheloves:

untitled by Anna Ådén on Flickr.

April 14, 2014   1 note

thirteen. - identity.

abstracthappiness:

on the day i leave you, i’ve already lost you.

i will cut my hair, i will not make myself a noose

for the person you only thought i was.

April 14, 2014   1 note

twelve. - warmth.

abstracthappiness:

when i wrap yarn around your fingers, 
i’m not trying to tie you down. 

i find something comforting about 
looped threads, sweaters in winter, 
a scarf around your neck. 

so come here, baby. 
when i wrap myself around you,
i hope i can always keep you warm.

April 14, 2014   1 note

day eleven. - wine and bones.

abstracthappiness:

the dead girl had been named
for her dead grandmother 
whom she had never met but 
was informed that she had been 
“a very nice woman”.

the dead girl was buried in a vineyard, 
quietly, so no one knew about her grave.
her body grew into grapes and 
the grapes were pressed into wine. 

later, a girl who drank the wine, 
who was too young to drink wine, 
broke her glass moments after the first sip.
the glass shattered like a scream no one heard. 

the stains the wine left on the white walls of her house looked like flowers, 
but it was winter at that time. everything outside was frozen. 

the girl locked herself into her room,
 downed the rest of the bottle all by herself. 
that night she dreamt that she turned into a tree, 

skin sprouting thorns and leaves, 
arms turning into branches bearing heavy fruit 
that fell to the earth and rotted, 
feet growing into roots pushing down through the soil, 

through a skeleton of a dead girl, 
who had once been a girl just like her, 
but with a different name, a different face,
a different past and no future. 

the dead girl whispered to her from the soil, 
“if we stay here long enough, 
our bones will turn into diamonds.”